yeah...emotions... {December 24th, 2011}

It sucks having someone on your mind all the time and being pretty sure that you're not on theirs at all. Maybe the thought, "Wow, she hasn't texted me today" comes to mind but then it leaves.
There is this quote that I loved when I was younger, "How many times do I cross your mind in a day?" "Once, you came in and never left." I think its adorable and I am kinda feeling that way. Which scares me because there are two reasons I am feeling that way one is that I love him but God is still working on us individually. Or the one that is most likely true, I see someone who has good features and I'm letting my emotions go crazy. I guess I won't know which one it is till one of gets into a serious relationship.
Whoever gets this guy better realize how completely blessed she is! And better treat him right and keep him accountable, and keep him in line with his walk! And better not make him stumble. She can't be someone who questions everything he does, but is submissive, a good housekeeper, a loving mother, a homeschooling mother(I think), and a godly women/wife! I hope he doesn't settle for less, which could mean he wouldn't end up with me. And if that's the case, I want to be the best sister to him I ever goould be.
Katharine

Working {December 23rd 2011}

Last week I started my first real job. I am a Laundry Assistant/House Keeper at HM an Assisted living home. I enjoy the job even though it gets kinda boring in the middle of the night. My co-workers are pretty cool, and I love the residents that I get to see during my hours. Which at 11pm-7am, those kinda bite! My sleep schedule is getting a little messed up! Its like having sleepovers every night, but they are less fun and a whole lot smaller. Oh, and no chick flicks.
But like I sad, I love the residents! They are pretty sweet. One of them cracks me up, I've been told that every time you go into his room he'll ask this one question, "Got a cookie?" Which makes me think of my good friend EMC, who we often call cookie monster. And from other stories I've heard about this resident he is 100% EMC's future! That brings me great entertainment.
Another resident reminds me of this guy named Bill, who is my 'adopted' grandpa who pasted away about  or 8 years ago. I think this resident maybe my favorite one. Yes, I've only been there for a week and I already have a favorite resident. I can't really explain him to you. He is just a very sweet old man, that I've fallen in love with after a week.
There are a couple ladies here that I really enjoy, too. I went into one lady's room in the morning and the first thing she said was "oh good, it's a girl." She doesn't let the guy who works night shift help her get dressed because, and I quote "I'm not married to him" I thought that was pretty darn cute. And I totally understand what she means though. BUt yeah there are two ladies that need help getting dressed in the morning. They are both super sweet. So far I've only met the nice residents, I've been told a couple of them can be kinda snappy, but I think they are all pretty nice. Which makes my job enjoyable. I'm hoping that I keep enjoying this job even a year from now. And that this isn't just a new job high. I guess we will just have to wait and see.
Another thing I'm surprised abut with this job is that maybe after a while here I may want to go to school for something medical. Which would be so weird. I said at one point that I'd never work with the elderly, and look at me now. Crazy! Its mind blowing how God changes what I think should be set on my heart.
This job is really a gift from God though. At some point late November my old boss(I use to nanny) told me that she maybe quitting her job soon. And no joke, the night before my dad told me about the job opening at HM. Then, about two weeks before my boss's last day a lady at HM put her 2 weeks in. One week later I started training! I'd have to be completely blind to not realize that was God's hand at work. Oh, and the hours don't get in the way of anything I already do, like church or Bible study. Though yes, my sleeping is getting messed up, I'll get that figured out soon then I'll be set.
While I sit at work I have a lot of free time, too. And that's is when I get to do this! I had so much trouble finding to write up blog posts, but now I have the time to! Yay! So get ready for lots more random ramblings!

Katharine

The Truth is Coming Out

I have not read my Bible for about a week. Last Tuesday or Wednesday at Work I studied for a little bit during my break. Now, I'm not saying this to say that I'm a "bad Christian" for not reading, but that I am suffering for not reading. My walk with the Lord suffers greatly when I'm not in His word, or praying for that matter. If you're wondering why it suffers, that's what I'm here to tell you in this post.
Have you ever had a relationship with anyone? I don't mean just a dating relationship but even a friendship. Do those relationships/friendships grow at all if you don't talk to each other or spend time together? No, of course not! You can't build a relationship with someone you don't talk to. Well, that is why my walk is suffering, because I'm trying to keep up a relationship with someone I've been ignoring. Have you ever tried to rebuild a friendship with someone you've ignored for a few months? It's hard to keep the friendship the same. Well, that's what is going on with me. I've been ignoring God for sometime now, so I'm at the point where I need to 'rebuild it'. Not that God is looking at me going, "I don't know if  can forgive you for ignoring me." But, that I have to get over my pride and ask Him for forgiveness. Once I do that He will say, "I already forgave you, don't you remember? I sent my Son! He bore your sins on the cross. You're forgiven!" Then when I've swallowed my pride, I can then run into my Father's arms, and continue to build my relationship with Him. While I'm stuck in my pride/sin the Father is patiently waiting, and still loves me. Because, His love never fails.
Now, I'm going to explain what my suffering walk looks like. Right now, because of the lack of relationship(only on my part) with God, I easily get upset with those around me, I'm discontent, depressed, stressed, weak, and over all pretty self-centered. I've been very discontent about a few things lately. One being stuck at home still, I feel like I'm very ready to move out, the other thing I'm discontent about is being single. There is a guy I've liked for around 7 months now, and we are just friends. And I'm beginning to think that's all we will ever be. I'd obviously like to be more, but I should realize how blessed I am to have him even as a friend, let alone a best friend. And if we stay just friends, then that's God's will for me, and He has someone better for me.(Even thou, I don't think there is anyone better for me out there) Because I'm discontent with my friendship with him, I get very short with him, and get annoyed and mad at him over nothing really. Or I read into things, and worst of all I get jealous over every girl he talks to. Which doesn't help my attitude towards him. I feel pretty bad for him, he has to put up with a very moody me. Which I'm sure is no fun to deal with. Yet he does, I'm so blessed to have him as a friend, but my discontent mind of "I'd be happier if I had more" gets in the way. How long is it going to take for me to realize how blessed I am?
Now, as far as being depressed, I'm not totally sure what to think about this. I'm bet it ties back into being discontent. Remember that, "If I had more I'd be happier" attitude? I think it's the biggest cause of my depression. I don't realize how blessed I am to have the things I have, I just look at what they have and what I don't have. Another problem is that I don't want to bother people with my problems so I keep my troubles to myself. Most of the time I don't even give it to the Lord. I act like  can do it by myself. I was told that if I really do have depression that I need to start being more active, so soon here I will join a gym so I can keep active and get into shape.
I'm stressed, because I try to do everything on my own. And I simply try to do everything. If someone asks me to do something I will almost always say 'yes!' unless I'm already doing something. Even if I haven't slept all night I'll still say yes. Then on things I don't have control over that are to big for me to handle I don't ask for help or pray for strength and/or help.This makes the stress build up.
Now, you maybe wondering how all of this comes from my lack of a relationship with God. Well, this is why, I am weak on my own.  I can't really do anything but Phil. 4:13 says, "I can do all things through Christ which strenghteneth me." So when I don't keep my relationship with God up, I start thinking, "I can do this without Him." But I really can't. That's like if I said I would build a well but didn't bring out a shovel. Or saying I could build a house and not bring any tools, it doesn't work.
This has been my life in a nutshell the past couple of months. I've been trying to build a mansion with no tools and with no co-workers (fellow believers). My life has been a lot harder these past couple months then it should have been.
Oh, but do you know one of the most amazing things about my Father? Even though I've been ignoring Hi;, He has still given me grace. He still showed me love and took care of me! My God, Creator, Savior, Lord, and king is amazing! And I am blessed.

Katharine

Attitude

So this morning I was sure I'd spend most of my day crying! BUT, I haven't cried at all today. I visited a new church this morning which I really enjoyed (thought not as much as one of the others, though). We sang one of my favorite songs "Glorious and Mighty", which is a song that even on a normal day would make me cry. But, God placed two adorably beautiful girls in the row right in front of me. They kept looking back at me or just simply staring at me. Those faces made it so easy to not cry! I couldn't help but smile when I looked at them. Then afterwards I went to lunch at a friends house. This was the first time (other then Thanksgiving) that I've had a home cooked meal in a very long time. It was super yummy! Thought I spent most of the day with people, I still had many times I could have just let the past week and all the emotions get to me. But. through God's grace I didn't. I kept an attitude of thankfulness through out the day! And I praise God for that! My day would have been...bad if He hadn't! 

"Your living is determined not so much by what life brings to you as by the attitude you bring to life; not so much by what happens to you as by the way [you look] at what happens" - John Horner Miller

‎"the greater part of our happiness depends on our disposition and not our circumstances. " Martha Washington

These quotes make me think of how we choose to be depressed most of the time. I mean, really I believe over half the people with depression are just being 'Debbie Downers" now that doesn't mean all of them are but I know there are some out there. Who just think, "oh poor me, look at how hard my life is." When we (yes I said we cause I KNOW I'm guilty of this from time to time) really have more things to be thankful for then we can count! So this kinda makes me think of a conversation I had with a very dear friend of mine, who just pointed out to me what a lot of my problem was. I simply is that attitude is a big part of everything. If you have a sore attitude your day is gonna stink, if you have a good attitude bad things may happen but your day won't stink! 

Heart Breaking

This morning I found out a dear friend of mine past away. I know he is in a better place, he is in heaven giving praise to God. Yet as I sit here on my bed all I can do is cry. And I'm not even crying for his family, but for me. I hate how selfish I am in everything, but here I am crying my eyes... I've even given myself a headache from crying so much. I found out around 9 O'clock this morning and spent most of the morning in tears. Then I went to work where I put a smile on my face for the kids..as I walked away from work I bursted into tears. From there I dropped a gift off at a friends house and yet again bursted into tears as I walked away. From there I drove around town for about 30 minutes trying to think of someones house I could go to, texting people as I drove around...found no one who wasn't busy. Now I'm sitting at home, on my bed wishing I could just disappear... cause I sure feel like I have already. I keep telling myself that the reason I couldn't find someone to hang out with was because I need to trust in God, and have Him help me through this... but I just can't get myself to believe it! Back to me being selfish. I'm not family, so no one is really checking up on me. But I'm close enough to feel complete heartbreak that I don't get to see him! That I never get to talk to him again. That I'll never get to introduce him to my boyfriend(so he can put some fear in the guy).Then I think of the fact that his daughter will never have this either... She'll never have a dad to walk her down the aisle, or give her away on her wedding day.

I wish I could go over to their house to bring them some sort of comfort or encouragement...but all I'd do is cry...and thats not encouraging or comforting. So I will sit here tonight crying, and tomorrow go to church with some fake smile on my face.

Life Changes

So a friend of mine told  me that I should read more of whats on my heart..So here I am. I'm going to start writing and whatever comes out comes out.

My life as of right now, I'm losing one of my nannying jobs but I'm starting a new job at an Assisted Living home. This is just one of the changes in my life. Another one is that one of my best friends dad is passing away soon. He has been struggling with Liver failure for the past two years and has finally come to the end. The past two days I was sitting in the hospital with his family, I couldn't help but wish that I had someone to cuddle up with and cry with. But I don't feel like I have the right do have that. Why should I? It's not my dad dying,  even tho it feels like it is. The last memory I will have of him is when I walked into his office a few months back. He wasn't doing to well, and I could tell he didn't feel the best but what did he do? He asked how he could pray for me. This man has such a testimony and a LOVE for God! He has a characteristics of a Godly man, the kind of man that I'm praying God brings into my life. I keep meeting great men, I mean GREAT godly men but I'm still single. I understand that it's okay to still be single and my age I know many people older then me that aren't in relationships. But that doesn't mean I don't wish I was in one. Anyway, make to my memory of him. He was asking me how he could pray for me. He was honesty interested in my requests and my heart of Africa! I love having the feeling of someone who cares for me, and honestly cares about what I want to do with my life.

So I have new life changes, new job, new friends, the loss of loved ones, a new church body and many more things. I can't explain whats going on in my mind right now cause I can't put it to words. I don't understand why I feel the way I feel most days. Nothing on earth is really making since right now. Which is why I'm so glad I have a God who I know is in control of all things. But I still have my break downs. I still feel like people don't like me and I still feel fat and pathetic most days.
So this is just a small piece of my life changes.. I'll keep posting as time goes on and you can get to know me more then you might want to

Blessings by Laura Story

Alright, here is some random rambling about the song Blessings by Laura Story
Blessings by Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

This is my life song! <3 
I spend some much time focused in on my trials that I forget that God is using my trials to bring me closer to Him. I've spend countless nights in tears and unable to sleep, because I'm focused on my trials and not the bigger picture. The picture of me being the clay in His hands, I'm focused on myself and my *BIG* trials! He is using all these trials to mold me into what He wills me to be! My will is nothing! I'm something He decided to make, someone He decided to saved, someone He is working through yet I still think I have to do it! I still depend on what I do changing the outcome! NOT what HE DOES THROUGH ME! 
I am discontent with what the Lord is doing for me! I'm always focused on my faults, and my failures! And not what He has given me. The fact that I am breathing is a blessing! The fact that I have believing friends that care about me, thats a blessing! The fact that I've gone to a Bible believing church my whole life, thats a blessing. I have a car that gets me from point A to point B, sometimes even point C. Yup, there is another blessing! I'm able to eat daily, thats a blessing! So what if I have trials daily, that doesn't add up to anything. If you compare my list of trials to my list of blessing (not counting the trials as blessings) I have nothing to complain about.
THEN, think if I think of all my trials as blessings I have NO reason to be sad. Yes, I know there is a time for everything as Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 says 

 "For everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven:

a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up, a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.

 a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

  a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

  a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

 a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

 a time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;"

But I'm sad most of the time. Which is not Biblical. It's okay to be sad when someone pasts away, or even if you lose your job. There are reasons to be sad, there are trials that can make us sad. But over all, our outlook on life needs to be one of thankfulness, and a joyful heart for all the blessings He has given us! 

The line in the song, "And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near 

We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love" It is so very true. When those trials hit our life what do we do? We get mad! If we are getting mad *at* God or getting mad at the people around us.(Which by the way is the same as being mad at God, cause he placed them in your life.) And we pray for 'signs', and other things, "As if every promise from Your Word is not enough". I think we cry out for signs, and cry out for Him to do all these things on our wish list because we aren't in His Word enough! I know if I was in His Word as much as I should be I wouldn't cry out in anger and I would NEVER doubt his goodness and love! 

Like I sad at the beginning, it was random rambling (well fitting for this blog). Hopefully it makes since to you and maybe it will be of some enragement to you.

Katharine

I am a Christian

I just want to say I did not come up with this I found it online. Enjoy!

When I say… "I am a Christian"

I'm not shouting "i'm clean liven'."

I'm whispering "I was lost,

Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say… "I am a Christian"

I don't speak of this with pride.

I'm confessing that I stumble

and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say… "I am a Christian"

I'm not trying to be strong.

I'm professing that I'm weak

And need His strength to carry on.

When I say… "I am a Christian"

I'm not bragging of success.

I'm admitting I have failed

And need God to clean my mess.

When I say… "I am a Christian"

I'm not claiming to be perfect,

My flaws are far too visible

But, God believes I am worth it

When I say… "I am a Chirstian"

I still feel the sting of pain.

I have my share of heartaches

So I call upon His name.

When I say… "I am a Chirstian"

I'm not holier than thou,

I'm just a simple sinner

Who received God's good grace, somehow!

True Friendship

When I read this it made me think of my new found best friend! He knows who he is so I'm not gonna put his name all over this post.

I thank God for friends like you. I'm not strong enough to handle having a boyfriend in my life so God gave me a wonderful and encouraging friend who puts up with everything I do for some crazy reason! And I'm very thankful for you! I don't think I tell you this enough but I truly am thankful for you! I hope you realize this! 

Katharine

Who am I?

I am Prideful      
I am Discontent
I am a Liar
I am Selfish
I am Hateful 
I am Jealous
I am a Sinner
I don't Trust Him Fully
I am Not Faithful
I am Vain
I Do Not Listen
I am Easily Frustrated 
I am Self Motivated 
I am Quick to Judge
I am Quick to Anger
I am Impatient
I am Unloving
I am Ungrateful 
I am Disrespectful
I am Dishonorable 




But with Christ


I am Humble
I am Content
I am Truthful
I am Self-less
I am Loving
I am Redeemed
I am Willing to Hear
I am Easily Please
I am Slow to Judge
I am Quick to forgiveness 
I am Patient
I am Thankful
I am Respectful
I am Honorable 
I am Joyful 
I am Peaceful
I am Gentle
I have Self-control
I am filled with Goodness

I AM really that bad.

As it is written, "There is none righteous, not even one; There is none who understands, There is none who seeks for God;All have turned aside, together they have become useless;There is none who does good, There is not even one."  "Their throat is an open grave, with their tongues they keep deceving," 
"The poison of aspa is under their lips"; "whose mouth is full of cursing and bitterness"; Their feet are swift to shed blood, Destruction and misery are in their paths, and the path of peace they have not known." "There is no fear of God before their eyes."
Romans 3:10-18

Idols

We make our own idols... Anything we can spend time on or with we can turn into an idol, and we normally do. Idols are no longer just a statue that looks like cows, idols are everywhere. Now days they are things like facebook(for me it was), boyfriends/girlfriends, playing music, reading books, actors, and many more things. We take all these things that God blessed us with and turned them into our own personal idols. Sometimes our idols can't even been seen by other because we turn ourselves into our own idols. Our pride is a huge idol, we often act like we did all this stuff all on our own which is pride and holding yourselves up higher then God. By doing this we have pretty much become our own idol. 


 Listen to these words of wisdom and this song by Tenth Avenue North, maybe it will have an impact on your life like it did for me.


Tenth Avenue North




Katharine

My Desire

So this weekend I went to a festival called LifeLight. It was held is in a corn field out in South Dakota. This festival is pretty much the biggest free Christian concert in USA So there were a ton of bands there, bands like Relient K, Tenth Avenue North, Sanctus Real, Britt Nicole, Chris August, Jeremy Camp, and smaller bands like Press Play, Ivoryline, and Manafest. The weekend was filled with all different kinds of worship and praise music. Some that you'd find in a church some that you probably wouldn't. The whole weekend was so great! I can get over how much fun I had. But here is what I want to write about. On Sunday night I got to hear my favorite artist, and he closed with my favorite song. 


My Desire by Jeremy Camp


You want to be real
You want to be empty inside
You want to be someone laying down your pride
You want to be someone someday
Then lay it all down before the King
You want to be whole
You want to have purpose inside
You want to have virtue and purify your mind
You want to be set free today then lay it all down before the King

[Chorus:]
This is my desire
This is my return
This is my desire to be used by you

You want to be real
You want to be emptied inside
And I know my heart is to feel you near
And I know my life
It's to do your will
It's to do your will

[Chorus]

All my life I have seen where you've taken me
Beyond all I have hoped and there's more left unseen
There's not much I can do to repay all you've done so I give my hands to use

[Chorus]


As I sang these words with my arms lifted high I couldn't help but cry. I've been living my life these past 3 or so years more for myself then for my Savior. I've had this 'desire' to serve Him, and have wanted to. But I never did anything about. As I look back I have found myself serving more to please men then to please Him! I find myself wanting to me more godly and Christlike so that way a guy will 'fall for me'. My true desire has been self focused. I'm at the point where I'm doing the right things,  just for the wrong reasons. I don't even know what to do anymore. I have to learn to spend time in His word and fall in love with my Savior! Why is it so much easier to fall in love with boys of this world then the one who created the world?


~Katharine

Africa

Hey everyone so I have a prayer request.

A few months ago God placed Sudan Africa on my heart. Since then I've been praying and thinking about being a missionary to Sudan(Southern Sudan). My plan is to in about 5 years make my way to Africa! I've started to learn Arabic, so that way (Lord willing) I'll be able to talk to most of the people I meet. I don't think I'll do a year long trip but i'm hoping for 2 or 3 months. All right, so now I'll get to my prayer request. If you could please be praying for me and missionary plans. I've got a lot of work to do before I can go. I need to learn how to be a missionary here, as well as learning to speak/read arabic.(which is hard) Being a missionary in my own home is hard, but there are so many lost people here in Lincoln so it has to be done. I also want to make sure I keep Christ behind my motives at all times. I've had a few people already tell me that they don't think I will end up being a missionary, so I could easily want to go just to prove them wrong. Which is a horrible motive for going to Africa. So if you could just keep me in prayers that would be wonderful, this is such a big thing for me. And its kinda scary. I'm not sure who I'll end up going with, or any of those details yet so I really have to just trust that God will take care of those plans.

Thanks for reading this!!

Sincerely, 

Katharine

A Photo For The Day

Convicting

So I came across this quote on my friends status on Facebook and I found it convicting.


"For some reason, I have noticed Christian girls who are "engaged to" or "married to" another girl on Facebook. Marriage isn't a joke, ladies. Change your relationship status, please. And leave the denigration of marriage to the homosexuals. It isn't chic to act like you are married to a chick." 
-Mike Adams


I never really thought about it when I was 'married' to a friend that was a girl. It was just a joke... So if you have seen my relationship status on Facebook and have been confused or offended I'm sorry. I hope you forgive me.


~Katharine

Rambling about Women's Roles

I've been listening to sermons by Rick Holland lately and loving every minute of it! The latest ones i've been listening to have been his "Women to be and Wife to find" series. And I have totally fallen in love with them! He's been digging in to Titus 2! Which I think is now my favorite passage! It has everything I love in it! It speaks of what the women's rolls are in the home and it speaks about discipleship which is something that lays heavy on my heart! 

Here are some of the things that Rick has pointed out that I'm looking forward to about being a wife someday. 

• The fact that a husband's reward in life is his wife. 

     Ecclesiastes 9:9 says " Enjoy life with the woman whom you love all the days of your fleeting life which He has given to you under the sun; for this is your reward in life and in your toil in which you have labored under the sun." 

To many women now days this sounds horrible. To them they see if as a man winning a prize, I see it as a wonderful job God has given me! The job of being a women after God's own heart so much that I would considered a reward to anyone sounds amazing to me!  

~Along with that we(wives) get to bring glory to our husbands, which also sounds bad to women now days. Because they don't understand how beautiful it is to be a women of God bring glory to her husband and to God! 

• Being a Homemaker 

I'm also looking forward to the simple role God is giving me. The role of being a homemaker sounds amazing to me! I'll be the one who takes care of all the little things at the home. and the one who will be with my children every step of their lives! The one who plans and makes the meals. And being the one who decorates the home. Okay so that last one isn't really a biblical thing but i'm still excited for it!

• Being a Mother

I already sorta touched this but it has to have its own spot. Being a mother will be so wonderful! Very challenging but wonderful! I will get to watch my children from baby to adulthood! Being a mother/homemaker a.k.a stay at home mom will allow me to see everything that happens in my children's lives from the first time they talk to the first time they drive all the way to their weddings! I simply don't understand why anyone wouldn't want to be a stay at home mom. I mean I understand its going to be hard and I may end up crying a lot. Especially when they get old enough to talk about. But I still think its very important to be the one in their lives from birth on!  Something that Rick pointed out is that if I send my children to a daycare or have a full time nanny, it is the people who work at the daycare or the nanny who gets to see all the first! Its also the daycare worker or nanny who my child would run to when they get hurt. They'd run to them instead of to me, mommy. I'm not even a mother yet but I understand that it would stink to have them not want mommy first. 

(Just so you know I'm not against Nannies or daycares because well I am a Nanny and i think this is why i understand how much it would stink to have them run to someone other then there mom when they get hurt and other little things like that because i know i wish my nanny kids would want me when they get hurt. But what is the first thing out of there mouth when they get hurt? "MOMMY!!! I WANT MOMMY" )

I've been listening to more Rick Holland but now about relationships so I may end up posting about that! 

~Katharine

Photography and a Quote of the Day

I'm working on writing about Women's roles but its taking me a while. So here is a post for you. I hope you enjoy the photo!

"I don't care how much you cry during singing or preaching, if you do not live a life marked by love toward others, the Bible has no encouragement for you to think that you're a Christian. None."
~ Mark Dever

Quote For The Day

"He takes the simplest and creates mountains that create a new landscape...maybe you'll be His next volcano"
-Ethan Armstrong

You never know what the Lord will do with you! He could take something 'small' you do and use it to change the world! Or he could take something you do and change one persons life for the rest of their life! Keep doing what you feel the Lord has put you here to do!

~Katharine

My Bucket List

After hanging out with Lindsey then Alissa and both of them asking if I had a bucket list I decided I needed to make one. So here it is! As I come up with more things I'll add them! :) (they aren't in any kind of order) Whats your bucket list?

• See a wild bear
• See a wild wolf
• Get a Tattoo 
• Camp in a tent
• get married xD
• Live somewhere other in Lincoln, Ne for a while
• Bring my family to Christ
• Make a huge impact on someone's life
• Learn to play the guitar well
• Write a good song
• Visit all 50 states
• Go to Australia
• See a wild Koala
• Go storm Chasing 
• See a tornado 
• Be in two places at once
• Go to a 'real' concert.(real concert=when I don't personally know someone in the band)
• Adopt a child
• Go to Canada

• Paint a room with Balloons filled with paint 
• Record a song
• Go to Yellowstone
• See Crazy Horse after it is finished 
• Go on a missions trip
• Learn how to dance
• Have someone write  song for me
• Be able to say I've never been drunk or smoked a cigarette 

Waiting...

So I know that I said I'd write about going though the motions of worshiping but when i sat down to write about it I was going on a blank so I wrote what i was thinking about.. Which is my future husband... 

I may not be very old yet but I still feel like waiting for Mr. Right (if God even has a Mr. Right for me) is going to take forever! When i was younger I always thought I'd get married right out of high school. Well i wanted to get married by then anyway. So now that I'm out of high school and not married I feel like its going to be a long time before i get married. I understand that I need to have patience and wait on the Lord's timing but some days are harder then others.  I don't know about you but some days I would just like to have someone who I can just call up and chat with about anything and everything. I have friends that I can talk to about stuff but I'd like to have that one person God picked for me. Because I know if His picked him then he(mr. right) is really going to care about what I'm saying.

I also have days where I'd like to just take care of 'my man'. I often wonder if the fact that I feel like I'm ready to be a home maker is a sign that I'm getting closer to finding Mr. Right or that maybe I've already found him and God is just working on our hearts. Which leads me to my next thought. 

How will I know when the right one is in my life? Is there going to be this moment where I just know this is what the Lord wants?  Or will it be this long process of questioning to make sure we agree on most things? Which also makes me wonder, Am I going to date many different guys or will God bring one man into my life? I have so much to learn and so much growing to do before I get married. Shoot, maybe even before I date! I guess I'm just going to have to get more patiences. Thanks for reading my Random Ramblings! :)

~Katharine

My NEW Option On Being Homeschooling.

My option on being homeschooling. If you would have asked me a few weeks back if i wanted to homeschool my children in the future i would have told you "no way!" But after listening to these lessons by Mike Matiscik I've changed my mind. You see Mike explained something that I already knew but had never really clicked in my mind. He explained that it doesn't matter what kind of parents you have, or even if you had parents in you're life. You, as a believer in Christ, you now have God as you're father! And He is the one who we should be striving to be like, therefore we shouldn't worry about being our parents on earth. You now have a  heavenly father who is perfect and will help you to be like Him! So after hearing this I realized that I could be a Godly mother, no matter what my up bring was. And as long as I teach my children through Christ it won't matter if i'm the smartest person on earth. If i keep Christ as my focus then I don't need to worry about if i'm 'good enough' to homeschool my children. Now does this mean that I have my heart set on only homeschooling? No, it means that now i'm willing to do either homeschool, public, or private school my children. Whatever my husband and I decided in the far future! 

Plus, I've also realized that if i send my children to a public or even private school someone else is teaching them and the world doesn't have a fear or love of God. Would i really want my children to spend 8 hours a day stuck in the world like that? I don't really think so, but if i do ended up sending my children to school there would be no TV in my house unless their father and I am with them. AHH, to much world to keep away from young minds!! 

Alright so here is my Random Rambling for the day!  I think i'll be posting one tomorrow or some time this week about going through the motions of worshiping. 

~Katharine

Re-Post from Facebook

The point of me writing this is so you guys all realize that all these little things you think won't matter later really do matter. As i look over the past four years i realize how much stuff i regret. Like not playing the goofy games, not meeting new people, or trying new things. 

Please listen(read) my note here as i try to give you all advice. 

Be involved all you can be, and be as loving as you can be(even to those who aren't as involved). You never know how much you can impact someone if you ask them how their week was! but don't just ask to ask but ask with a heart that cares about the answer! Because they can tell when you are asking just to make small talk. As Christians we are to be loving one another, and i don't think i really started to understand this till the end of my junior year beginning of my senior year. I wish i had realized that earlier in my years! I went for one thing, "what can i get out of youth group today?". and though yes, we are to get encouragement from our youth group. But whats more important, getting encouragement or being an encouragement! I think being encouraging it so much more important. If you are only looking for encouragement you are then lacking in building others up and being selfish. 

If i could go back to freshmen year I'd go back and serve more. Now those who know me know that i served a lot over the past four years but my motives could have been so much better. I could have served in different areas. I normally served wherever one of my buddies was serving. If i had stepped out of my comfort zone and served in other areas i could have met more people in the youth group and been more of an encouragement. 

I also would have focused one my walk with the Lord a lot more then I did. I spent most of the past four years worrying about..well boys truthfully. Which is simply dumb since i believe God has my husband picked out for me already what was the point in worrying about it? I really wish i had lived by this quote

‎"A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man should have to seek Him first to find her."

but now three years after getting saved i still have to work on my devotion life like if i was a new believer. That i think is my biggest regret! 

So please if you are going into your senior year, junior year, sophomore year, freshmen year, or even jr. high years please keep your focus on what is truly important to you. Well what is really important to you? Is it the girls/boys? Is it looking good? Is it making the sponsors think you're wonderful? Or is it being glory to God? I really hope/pray its the last one!

I hope I've been some what of an encouragement to you as you read this. (and that you could understand it because i know i'm not very gifted at typing, lol)

In Christ's Love,

Katharine 

Welcome!

Welcome to my blog that will soon be filled with random ramblings by me! But before I go off on my ramblings for this blog I'll let you know who I am. I'm a young women who has a love for the Lord! I go to a Bible believing church, where my head pastor teaches straight from God's Word(the Bible). I personal believe that God sent his Son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross for our sins. John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life." This is the simple truth of the Bible, and I believe hold heartily.
    Now in this blog I will be voice my opinion on many different things, more then just simply voice my own opinion I will be sharing what God's word has to say many things. Also in this blog I will share personal convictions and what the Lord has been teaching me lately in my quiet time and through friends.
   If you have any questions about what I believe or what I talk about in later posts feel free to leave a comment and I will reply as soon as I!

~Katharine